New Year, New Twitch?

New year is here, 2012. Am I the only one who thinks it sounds like something out of a science fiction book? Seriously, folks, 20-12? I guess I’ll just have to accept it, can’t really fight it. So here it is, another year. It’s hard not to look back at the past year and think, what the freak did I do this past year? Thank god for pictures on iPhoto. That’s when I realized, oh yeah, I did do some stuff. I guess it was a “good” year. Nothing majorly bad happened to me personally, but there were some tragic events to people close to me and to others around the world. It’s not really necessary to label a year good or bad, is it? It simply IS, or WAS a time when events took place. There was the very sad event of my niece dying. Very, very sad passing for my family. She was young and just getting her feet under her. There is never an answer to the question, “Why?” We simply learn to live with it and do our best to live our lives honorably since others cannot. What does it mean to live “honorably”? That’s for another post. Was actually sick yesterday for the first time in years. Could, not, get, out, of, bed and when I finally managed to drag myself to bathroom I nearly fell down with dizziness. Suddenly, I simply wanted to die. That is how, weak, I, am. Of course I didn’t really want to die, but I did in some weird, pathetic way. So I went back to bed, sent some emails, and proceeded to sleep for a good part of the day. Upon waking I felt guilty for being home during the day. Yes, guilty. Sick and tired, yet still I felt guilty. Guilt is such a waste of time and emotion. I thought about doing some work, reading a book, but was completely unable to do anything productive or even entertaining. Instead I sat around in my robe and worked on a puzzle for a bit. And went on facebook, of course. I woke up today feeling much better, BUT I have had a eye twitch all day! This is not funny and I it better go away soon!